i dont desrve to be here..i dont wanna be here...then y am i here???

for quite a long time..i hav observed i am comprised of 2 very different personality.
iam very different with ppl i was before iit and with the ppl i am here.
amd i think i was a better person then.

is it me or the conditions that have changed??
if it was me then y i am the same person with old friends and why i feel like same old vinal i used to be. and even new friends that grow exponentially wen i meet ppl outside iitd.

certainly something is different over here and to be very sure i hate this "something".

i have frenz all over but still i am a lonely person when i am in here in iit.
from day1 i am counting the no. of days i will be able to leave this place.
no offence to anybody in person but i dont like the mindset in which most(certainly not all) are in.

the reason i write i dont deserve to be here
bcoz i know i m not innovative i m not having the brain which can do miracles i certaionly cant contribute in here.